24 days...silently suffocating

"In my dream I got you on the phone and it was all a big misunderstanding. It was hard to hear you and we couldn’t seem to converse well. You were just with a new friend somewhere; I put it on speaker so others would know you were alive. That it was all a mistake. That you would be coming home. But then, I woke up suddenly and opened my eyes. As hard as I tried, I could not fall back asleep and find you. My mind instantly remembered the reality of your death and my sorrow started all over again, for another day. It has been a touch over three weeks now and I relive forgetting you are really gone and remembering the reality so many times, every single day, it’s like death by a thousand cuts, it’s torture. I miss and love you so much my sweet husband. ❤️💔😔"